| Oct. 13th, 2008 @ 06:33 pm Long time no see... |
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Current Location: Portland, ME
The State of My Head:: maudlin
The State of My Headphones:: Radiohead - In Rainbows
Hello, Internet.
It's me, Aaron.
Long time, no post. I know. I know.
I miss my girlfriend. Well, I guess she is my ex-girlfriend now.
There, I said it. I miss her. I wish I had never broken up with her. I just couldn't take it, she had trust issues. She thought I was cheating on her. Ugh. I have not had any kind of relationship since the breakup, and I guess I'm just kind of in Limbo emotionally.
I thought the time away would give me room for self improvement, whatever that means. And I suppose it has, but I get lonely often (I know, I know; whinge, whinge, whinge...) and I miss our amazing conversations. It was nice just to have someone I could talk to about ANYTHING with, you know?
Like, I can talk to some of my friends about some things, like games or movies or comics or music, and I can talk to some of my friends about religion, politics, philosophy, psychology, etc, and I can talk to some of my friends about fetish and kinky stuff, and whatever. But how many people can I talk about all of that stuff with, without them being either weirded out or bored or whatever by one or another subject? Not many. And most of the ones I could, I've lost touch with because I'm an introverted, self-loathing freak who thinks no one really wants to talk to me, hence I don't call them.
Whee. Self-hating for the WIN.
Alright, I'm being dramatic, I don't feel that bad, really. But you know how sometimes you just get on one of those kicks. I feel a lot better now, actually. W00t.
Thanks for listening, Internet. Feel free to poke fun at me now. |
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